poetry

You tear through me the way fall tears through the trees

You’ll leave me completely bare and frail

Said you’d never let me go and you never really did

Said you need me in your life and I believe it

Don’t you understand what you have?

Others before you have made similar mistakes

They always come running back to me

And babe you should know I never have time to wait

And as I get older I learn the different levels of lonely

The newest high I felt is when you hold me

How can being in someone’s arms feel so empty?

At the end of the day I know I’m all I need

In the days you didn’t know me that’s when I felt most alive

These days I don’t want to be out I just want to hide

So we will hide together away from the sun and everyone

And I’ll just keep smoking until there is no oxygen in my lungs

I know you’ll never play her that song

The one in which I’d sing along

You used to stay up with me all night long

Without you, I don’t come off too strong

If you were here

If I were there

Honey, we’re going nowhere

My love for you will remain as a ghost

You were always the one I cared for most

You don’t know love until you know pain

I want to call but I’ll try to refrain

You’re just the only one in my brain

I asked you to stay you said get in your lane

You’ve always been an open book and I’ve always been above your reading level

You’ve always tried to play it safe and I’ve always been a bit of a rebel

I push your limits when you want to take it slow

I wish I knew better but I obviously don’t know

I’ve always been pretty bad at waiting

And every day I see you changing

I’ll never be what I used to be

But that’s just me

And the bright side is hard to see

Even an understanding heart gets tired

My mind is constantly lit up and wired

If I say I’m happy then I guess I’m a liar

I am not being dramatic

I have simply learned from the past

You ask if I’ll bleed for you

But blood loss is so fatal

And I’m already running on low

It starts with a wall

A broken cell screen

Soon there will be nothing

For you to break but me

I always attract such selfish boys

Ones who view me as a toy

When all I do is try to create joy