poetry

i have a heart full of hatred

nothing quite breaks like a heart does

I have a heart full of hatred and pain  

But at times I let it go and I enjoy the happy things with others 

When I see a young couple smiling and laughing walking down the city street at night it is easy to rejoice for them and I feel a small twitch  in my chest that reminds me I’m capable of feeling but my heart just isn’t strong enough to breathe on its own yet and it needs the hatred running through it’s aorta to stay alive  

It’s a sad truth but it’s true 

And even a broken heart is a true heart at the core 

we can’t always shield what is inside

we can’t always shield what is inside

We were so beautiful and nothing had been killed 

Now we are broken all our blood has been spilled 

I like to just blame you but I guess we can call it even 

I never should have listened to when you said you weren’t leaving 

Stay and go  

That’s the only way you know 

Patronize me 

Don’t leave me all alone  

every living thing dies alone

every living thing dies alone

Don’t love me because I love you 

Love me because you mean to  

I know where I really need to be  

But you hold me I’m not really free  

To be who I am without causing stress  

I feel like I am okay now I was such a mess  

Believe me when I say I still pray every night  

I wish you were my god and held me so tight  

No one is worth dying over no one is true  

I thought differently when I first met you  

Way to prove me wrong and regrow my doubt 

Love and faith isn’t really all this is about  

keep up with me

Boys always say they’ll buy you flowers

But the only thing blooming is their ego

 

Did I make a mistake falling in love outside of the party?

 

 

Feeling isolated

My pupils dilated

 

Keep up with me

hey thanks for nothing

Maybe it’s karma

Maybe it’s a sad price

But that’s what you get

For not being so nice

 

That night you said she was nothing

But she must have been quite something

 

To throw away everything we had