poetry

take a hint for me

 

I’m the reason you’re always trying to forget

 

I’m now just something you once had

 

You frustrate me on every single planet

 

This has been enough I’ve had it

 

Because I can’t stop thinking about you

Dreaming about you

When I kissed you in your car

 

Because I know you still think of me

Dream of me

Even though you ran away far

 

 

And baby I know that you’re gone

But I need you here and I’m not that strong

So baby

Just maybe

Please

(take a hint for me)

 

 

 

 

you can’t grow where you’ve died before

I begged you

For a year

To take me to the flowers

So I could heal

 

You finally did

Very underwhelming

Now you take your whores there

That’s how you do all your spending

 

On girls who don’t care

They are just there

To open their legs

So you get your way

 

I cannot love you

Until you become humane

When you realize the pain you cause

You can call me by my name

 

I’ll never be there for you

If you can’t speak the truth

I’ve tried to get you to spill

But it’s no use

 

So keep lying to me

Tell me you’ve done no wrong

I’ve been waiting for you to be honest

I think I’ve been waiting too long

 

I’ll stay over here

Pretend you’re still gone

When really I know you need me

But I was always just your pawn

 

 

talking about hard days

Every song is you today

 

I miss you in every way

 

You never asked me for help

 

This is the worst pain I ever felt

 

When we drove away from the funeral

 

We decided we felt like collateral

 

We were mad we aren’t now

 

I guess it doesn’t matter anyhow

 

Because you are gone and I am here

 

Nothing is the same because of you my dear

 

 

 

 

sorry about the tough times

 

All I wanted was for you to be mine

Forgot about the rest

The whole entire quest

My life is a mystery I don’t want to solve

 

 

When the demons are big

And the sleep comes harder

My grace I start to dig

Can’t handle this forever you know

 

 

defeated posture

 

You only want what you simply can’t have

 

I wasn’t enough then, why would I be now?

 

Because I’ve found solid ground without you?

 

I have no stability to lend to you

 

I spent so long with your weight on my back

 

(Now I know I never want you back)

 

imagine me in a crown (a note)

All I ever wanted was flowers but all you ever gave me was flaws  

 

Did anyone teach you how to love right?

You’ve become such an awful sight

I won’t feel responsible for your fall

Because on you I’ll blame it all

 

 

Onward  

 

We’re both going to keep going

I’ll catch glimpses of you

Like passing road signs

I’ll believe it to be true

 

Candy cane veins  

 

We don’t have to speak about the past

or about how we didn’t last

 

And I won’t let you know how miserable I am yet

 

Tell the mirror over and over

That I never wanted this to happen

 

 

 

our trip home

Fast paced

Call me late

But you’re picking me up early

 

Heading back

Losing track

You keep my head spinning

 

Don’t forget

What I like best

Kiss me and make me nostalgic

 

I will be

All that you need

Like I have since we were young