You taught me to drive stick
And then you drove me crazy
You kissing her made me sick
Made me smoke made me hazy
I’ll always be with you
Like it or not
To you I was true
Rebelled but never caught
I’m in your blood now
There is nothing you can do
When we kiss we vow
I’ll always come through
Because when you need me
I’ll be there for you
You’re what I need
You’re who I always look to
And I wouldn’t have to get my heart rate going up again
If you were mine and you didn’t put up such a fight
You always ran and never stayed
I’m just a few short breaths away
From saying things I shouldn’t say
About us
You loved me hard but you pushed me harder away
The edge so close but I guess this is my price to pay
You used your hands not just to hold me
Which is why I’m so okay with being lonely
I’ll end up on top just you wait and see
You won’t be much without me
Ill let it all fall down tonight
I’ll let you consume my blood stream
Take over my white cell account
You’re all I need tonight
I always thought when you fall in love with someone its magical
Why do you push me away?
Does my kiss not fix your bad day?
I feel alone when I lay next to you
This feeling isn’t anything new
I have only ever trusted me
I wish you could help me breathe
It’s so simple of you to want me to gone, want me dead
You have such a strange way of admitting I’m in your head
I touch you I feel sparks
I wish you felt what I felt
Am I full of lumps
Do I disgust you?
I just wish you’d touch me
Like magnets colliding
A need that can’t go unheard
Stick with me
Like I’m all you’re need
I broke your heart last week
I imagine you’re still hurting from it
Strange how I feel no sympathy
For causing pain to someone who used to be my everything
But like they say everything comes back around
You returned once and I’ll see you later
You’ll never be ‘you’ without me
Don’t you see?
You were the best ‘you’ when you were with me
You’re gone right now
It’s all fine
You’ll be back soon
You’ll be mine
You can run
But you can’t hide
I’m the only one
Allowed in your mind
I know you say it over and over
But like good karma
I still don’t believe in it sometimes
I don’t want to keep going. I’ve been low before but I’ve never felt so hollow and empty; worthless. My body follows my mind and shuts down with it. I know I am capable of loving who I am but I feel, right now, like I am no one, like I am nameless. Searching my mind for reasons to stay every day and the list continues to grow shorter and shorter. And I remember losing you and I remember how it felt to me; I don’t wish that on anyone I love. But I also remember how easy it seemed. One day you were here and the next day you just weren’t. Like a breeze.
Some days I want to join the wind with you.