poetry

i wasn’t in love then and i’m still not now

and you say she’s all you need

while you hand me all your green

just to see my body on-screen

oh I love to make you scream

absolutely love it when you leave

honey, you don’t know what you need

but you swear to god it isn’t me

should’ve let you bleed out your knee

could have been one less problem for me

‘cuz I know you’ll be back we’ll see

you always beg and you always plea

let me in just enough before you flee

 

 

what the fuck do you even want from me?

 

you’re the only goodbye i enjoy

I’ve learned from the master (you)

 

To take what I need and run (far)

 

I bet you’re sad aren’t you (blue)

 

I love the ghosting the silence (au revoir) 

 

I’ll never let you touch me again (beg me)

 

You want me I want your wallet (I’m not free)

 

The king of dramatics, prince of lies (cheater)

 

I am the princess of success (keeper) 

 

Keep your shit town and fake love (not interested) 

 

I love my city lights and adventurous heart (potential unlimited) 

 

 

 

differences pt.2

My love is not the same as your love 

 

I don’t fall for anyone

Anyone under the sun 

 

I don’t ink everyone in my skin 

Cover up your mistake your sins 

 

I don’t jump the way you do 

I still appreciate the new 

 

You need more caution 

For more resolution

 

But love I’m not yours anymore 

So you’ll make more mistakes I’m sure

 

hey I’m back from trying all the drugs and yeah it’s true that you’re far worse

Dressed in black and white

Staying up alone at night

Four cement walls hold me

They remind me I’m lonely

 

Gaps and cracks exposing 

Feel my bones decomposing 

But there is a certain relief 

Not being in the ground beneath 

 

Death seemed so friendly 

When I was in your company 

I learn I dream I succeed 

Love is never a need 

curiosity is contagious

We live in a world full of people who like to uncover the secrets of the ground

 

A world full of people who feel they must know where they will go after they are done here

 

I’ve never been the type to worry about where I’ll end up beyond the grave

 

But now all I can hope 

 

Is that my heaven is far away from yours 

 

(Or am I your heaven?) 

yearning (a note)

I’ve felt so many different types of yearnings for you 

 

When you dragged your fingers across my legs in her basement, fuck

I wanted you so badly 

 

Forever needing the truth from you, begging with blood in my eyes 

 

When you begged me in the forest to only be yours because you needed me more than the air in your lungs 

 

Now I just yearn for anything 

 

From you