Strawberries lies Talking to another guy I wish he was mine And all the books he buys But I’m stuck in this tide Fake laughs – smile wide Pretend that this is fine But I’d rather die Than sit here and sigh Sigh sigh Strawberries will be fine Go to bed another night Back to […]
Author: Amanda Vi
strawberry lies
want me when i’m gone
I bought a beautiful black dress to kill myself in. But now I’m wondering if red is a better color to die in, to match the color slowing in my veins, maybe support a bloodstain lipped as an accessory. Or maybe I’m avoiding things. They only want me once I’m not theirs anymore I’m the […]
starburst lips
Please don’t sympathize with me I do not forgive I only apologize ———— I daydream so often about killing you lately Pushing a solid bullet through your chest I’ll stay and watch the blood pour from your chest Until blood drips from your bottom lip Lips like starbursts lips like rat traps The only DNA […]
fight n flight
I’m sick of this pain partner That occupies the seat next to mine I’ve tried for years to shove it in the upper console I tried storing it underneath my seat But alas I suppose I just have to sit with this feeling
embrace the point of no return
It’s like letting someone stab you over and over I never really had the will to live in the first place so keep stabbing Let me bleed I’ll feel the pain to feel anything at all
mulch
Not even dirt honestly more like that sticky stuff between the dirt and rock under the ground So far down I can be bothered to look for the sun anymore I was a princess living this fantasy with a prince who could never love me More like a tragedy […]
eyes fighting light
My eyes are refusing to stay open Much like your mind It’s on days like these I feel isolated Hollow, broken, empty inside
hopelessly devoted to no one
I had a dream about a boy He stopped my heart whenever his eyes reached mine He sat across from me on the bus As most of my loves had Always going somewhere When really all I want is some time alone With you Are you Real? Are you here? Should I just keep […]
it’s good to know i didn’t die for nothing (spread)
god knows i came close that night but he won’t tell right?
you held onto my vinyl because music is the only thing you could ever commit to
And he said, “if you don’t get it off your chest you will never be able to breathe freely again.” And I said I do not Care About my Air I’m in Despair My heart will Tear I do not Care I will say nothing Just lay my body in the […]