Blood across my knuckles and scars all up my legs Strength shown in discourse A clean soul is damaged more than you’d think It won’t be until the day that I die That you feel that freedom That weight off your heart Until then I’ll keep you down
Category: writings
mad at my motivation
I always let you know that you could do it I pushed you out of love You resisted out of fear We were meant to grow together Talking about dreams we had, Dreams I’m accomplishing without you now. I’ve just been thinking that you can do better. Everyone in your life hated me because […]
heavy conscious tin box
I’ll send you my heart in a box A little tin one with some old logo on the front so no one will know. It will be our secret. I will send you my entire heart first and then you will send yours in return. Do you promise? It took a lot out of me […]
blocked bitch
It’s okay if you’re not where you want to be But it is not fair to take that out on me I don’t care for your hostility That’s clearly born from jealousy I won’t slow down I won’t concede I live on my own with no one to control me Not my fault you dropped […]
leave her alone
I can’t find my footing I feel uneasy with your grip Can I hold myself up better? Forever mad at who I’ve been Striving to over correct it What do you aim for? Is everything you say and feel temporary? Or like me are you a to the grave type? […]
2am provokings
Remember when you first loved me And everything was new Only thought about me and you But now with you I feel so lonely You never loved me after all Just a combination of weed and alcohol That’ll teach me not to fall
He told me not to be scared of dying (before he killed himself)
I saw myself in the rearview mirror in the uber and I realized I’m who I’ve always wanted to be When I go to my hometown I’m reminded of the bottom from where I started, where you chose to decay When I spend nights downtown on my balcony studying I know I’m where I’m […]
we’re all laughing at you
I’ll watch you fall to your death I’ll try not to smile Bite my lips for a while I’m too young to take myself out You’ll never succeed Tied down like a tree Boiling water poured upon your roots No more room for growth You’re hitting a new low I don’t have […]
conscious hallucinations
i’m aware you aren’t there but i still stare i guess i still care you were never fair now you’re somewhere hands in a new pair breathing in that new air i am your biggest scare push your decency down the stairs finding someone like me is rare i know i’m still there that you […]
what is existence without resistance?
but who am i to fall & stay in love with someone who never cared if i cried not even at our peak we’ve had more than enough each other but i always let you back in puppy eyes, ‘please’ , ‘it’s not the same without you’ it’s not me it’s nature science […]