I’m sick of this pain partner 

That occupies the seat next to mine 

I’ve tried for years to shove it in the upper console

I tried storing it underneath my seat 

But alas

I suppose I just have to sit with this feeling 

I had a dream about a boy 

He stopped my heart whenever his eyes reached mine

He sat across from me on the bus

As most of my loves had

Always going somewhere 

When really all I want is some time alone

With you 

Are you Real? 

Are you here? 

Should I just keep living in despair? 

Is my life nothing to repair?

I’ll always remember your stare

They say you only dream about people you’ve met

But I can’t imagine meeting you and my world not changing forever 

Where are you?

And he said, “if you don’t get it off your chest you will never be able to breathe freely again.”

And I said 

I do not

Care 

About my 

Air 

I’m in 

Despair

My heart will 

Tear 

I do not 

Care

I will say nothing 

Just lay my body in the ocean 

to fall  & stay in love

with someone who never cared if i cried

not even at our peak

we’ve had more than enough each other

but i always let you back in

puppy eyes, ‘please’ , ‘it’s not the same without you’

it’s not me

it’s nature

science

chemical

keeping me here

what have you done to me?

do you also have days where the world feels empty because i stole it from you?

what is existence without resistance?

what is love without a little war?

is it even worth it?

when i talked to the sky

didn’t matter that

it wasn’t another guy

i had no one

you made sure

killing you

was my cure

i’ll lick the blood off my blade

no need to hide in dark and shade

they know

who you are

what you’ve done

They are quite aware

of the demon you’ve become

they say everyone deserves love

but i hope you get none

if there isn’t enough

we don’t allow people like you, waste

try & fail

back at the beginning of your tale

we accomplish

while you simply fade away

go back to your town

(you’ve got nothing to say?)

i guess a quiet tongue is a truthful one, you’re right

but one day your conscious will win the fight

(leave me out of it)

Onto Uni, the next tier 

Never did I think I’d be here 

To waste my power is a sin 

I love the towers that surround me

Make me feel safe, at ease 

Finally up off my boney knees 

It was all possible I just had to leave 

No one can track me 

On a fucking cell phone screen

I am completely free 

The double life that you led 

She’d still end up in your bed

I know I’m still in your head

Causing the motions again 

But hun I wish you were dead 

while you hand me all your green

just to see my body on-screen

oh I love to make you scream

absolutely love it when you leave

honey, you don’t know what you need

but you swear to god it isn’t me

should’ve let you bleed out your knee

could have been one less problem for me

‘cuz I know you’ll be back we’ll see

you always beg and you always plea

let me in just enough before you flee

what the fuck do you even want from me?

To take what I need and run (far)

I bet you’re sad aren’t you (blue)

I love the ghosting the silence (au revoir) 

I’ll never let you touch me again (beg me)

You want me I want your wallet (I’m not free)

The king of dramatics, prince of lies (cheater)

I am the princess of success (keeper) 

Keep your shit town and fake love (not interested) 

I love my city lights and adventurous heart (potential unlimited)